Frozen.


Didn’t know what to do, how to act, forgot how to ‘be’.


Did the only thing I know;


Playing and feeling dead.

People are so shallow, so happy while being shallow, I envy them so much… Daily joys, cheap thrills gets them going and eventually they happen to live a better life than you, emotionally, because they are not so self aware. Thats so fucking unfair 🥲


I changed my point of view about love.

Though it sounds cocky, whatever, now I believe Love itself isn’t ready yet for how much I can love. How much I can give. How much I can feel.

My therapist thinks I’m a “giver”… not a discovery for my part.

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artwork by Stefan Visan

Yaraya gülümsedim her sabah

Yarayı önemsedim

Yarayı hazırladım gözlere

Yarayı temizledim

Yarayı büyütmedim hayalinle

Kendimi küçümsedim

Denize baktım ömürlerce

Tuzunu ezberledim

Yarayı öptüm ellerinden

Yarayı dinledim

“Benden onda da var” dedi

Yarasını sevdim

Elini uzattın hep

Havada kalan en güzel hayalimiz

Yaramızı unutturur

Yarayı kapatan aşk

Yaradan da derin



Hugs are underrated.


Hugging can be the most intimate thing you do with a person. To me, could be even more intimate than sex even, undisputedly.


And I yearn for a good, long, firm hug. Well, also sex but that’s intentional that I stay abstinent. A genuine hug, you can’t just have it like that, it won’t feel as deep.


I don’t know how to articulate. Anyway..

Out in the stars again,

Lost your mind, you got the bends

Your time was spent wastin’ away,

Chemicals embraced