When I’m comfortably numb, I don’t mind a monotone life, doing the same things in same timeline for every day of the week, but when I’m uncomfortably numb, it feels like I’m stuck in a circle I can’t get out.
And lately it feels lot like the latter.
I’m just mentally tired
I know some 40+ year olds with kid(s) that go on social media about “raving”, “me after rave”, and having their kids on their shoulders in 3 a.m. type of shit..
Hey, it’s 2023, so nothing can be judged, god forbid, you’d offend somebody… So not as judgement but a piece of mind; it’s clear that a 7 y.o. kid needs quality sleep time and some grown up parents, dude. You’re not in your early 20s anymore, how about not acting like you are not working 6 days a week to make ends meet as a single parent and take some responsibility & grow up.
Idk lol it’s just cringe to see these posts likes of what teenagers sharing from an adult. Maybe we should all applaud them for not giving a single fuck about how raising the kid as the animals do in the jungle is the 2023 thing to do; just pop it out of your vag and let it be in the wild.
Its not PC to say all this but this is why we’re having fucked up next generations, really. People who haven’t grew up themselves are popping kids out of them like its nothing. The times we’re living in, lmao…….
Frfr :/
I consider myself self-sufficiant but I tend to get vulnerable when I get sick.
Yearning for care when in distress is hardcoded to our brains from the baby years, i guess.
“Cause transparency is my love language”
It horrifies me how random your life can be depending on the environment you’re born in. Wild.
I feel depressed 90% of the time, and high the other 10%.
“I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.”— Ferdinand de Saussure
(Source: quotemadness.com, via lemme-holla-at-you)
“Yo sé que tú lo dudas de que yo te quiera tanto, si quieres me abro el pecho y te entrego el corazón”
Want to settle down and calm my slutty ass. Everyone’s so off FOMO about hookup culture, you sometimes feel either you’re all in or all out.
I am usually good with dealing FOMO, I rarely give a fuck about it, but with dating and stuff, I kinda lost hope that I’d find someone decent and calm as I’d look for in a person, everyone’s fucking like a rabbit and you feel you need to follow through.
Asking for something deeper, forming meaningful connections are too much to ask. Everyone wants to fuck you and wants stick around fucking you or move onto next one.
I’m not going to bring even the idea of settling down to a person like this, like ‘surface me’ who are participating in this culture.
The thing is, attention is craved at this age of social media, no-one can actually spend time with themselves anymore. Idek man, i really lost hope of settling down at this point and I ain’t even gonna bother looking for it.
Sometimes, some things come to my mind out of blue, I get all calm and divine all of the sudden, and think.
When I come across to a Mac Miller song in ‘Shuffle’, I feel empathy, sympath and sadness about the way he left the world. Don’t even know the guy, but that’s what good music does, touches your soul. Transmits the feeling felt. And reflects on your own soul.
We’re going to someplace shittier than yesterday by each day passing. Maybe he just saved himself.
Rip Mac.