Frozen.
Didn’t know what to do, how to act, forgot how to ‘be’.
Did the only thing I know;
Playing and feeling dead.
People are so shallow, so happy while being shallow, I envy them so much… Daily joys, cheap thrills gets them going and eventually they happen to live a better life than you, emotionally, because they are not so self aware. Thats so fucking unfair 🥲
I changed my point of view about love.
Though it sounds cocky, whatever, now I believe Love itself isn’t ready yet for how much I can love. How much I can give. How much I can feel.
My therapist thinks I’m a “giver”… not a discovery for my part.
artwork by Stefan Visan
Yaraya gülümsedim her sabah
Yarayı önemsedim
Yarayı hazırladım gözlere
Yarayı temizledim
Yarayı büyütmedim hayalinle
Kendimi küçümsedim
Denize baktım ömürlerce
Tuzunu ezberledim
Yarayı öptüm ellerinden
Yarayı dinledim
“Benden onda da var” dedi
Yarasını sevdim
Elini uzattın hep
Havada kalan en güzel hayalimiz
Yaramızı unutturur
Yarayı kapatan aşk
Yaradan da derin
Hugs are underrated.
Hugging can be the most intimate thing you do with a person. To me, could be even more intimate than sex even, undisputedly.
And I yearn for a good, long, firm hug. Well, also sex but that’s intentional that I stay abstinent. A genuine hug, you can’t just have it like that, it won’t feel as deep.
I don’t know how to articulate. Anyway..
Out in the stars again,
Lost your mind, you got the bends
Your time was spent wastin’ away,
Chemicals embraced





